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So much to say, where do I start? I'm drowning by a sea of thoughts in head, suffocating by thoughts of you, I just wana jump out of my head

I'm the greatest writer on earth.

Transcribing an interview is, in some ways, like carrying a baby.
At first every event is exciting and new. All you can think about are the amazing new experiences you are about to be exposed to and the new information you will discover on this long journey. While transcribing an interview, you get used to the interviewee’s voice, style of speech and verbal ticks (if I hear the words “you know what I’m saying” one more time…). While carrying a baby, the soon-to-be mother might at first become enthralled by feeling the first kick or witnessing her own body change shape for another being.
By the middle of the journey, the outlook starts to get bleaker and the difficulties of the process set in. The morning sickness hits and you don’t know how many more times you can run to the bathroom. You realize that you’ve listened to the same three seconds about 50 times and there is no way you will understand the mumbling. You begin to question how much longer you can go on for.
The last stretch is the toughest. You push and push and fight through everything in your mind that’s telling you to stop—and out comes a beautiful baby. It was all worth it. You forget about every last second of the pain because the ultimate accomplishment is worth more than any struggle.

The oxymoron of A New Year.

It was all good just a week ago, now 7even days later everything has changed,
Still unemployed. Now homeless. Niggas' Snitchin' (U Rat Bastard)


The one thing I admire about my own writing abilities, is it's diversity, and versatility. The landscape of writing can be so broad and deep, the limits are unlimited. So allow me a few lines to vent my thoughts through my blog.


Today I sit on the verge of cracking, but in all this I realized that niggas' are 2-faced. And just as quickly as God gives, He can take away. When 2011 rolled in I had a firm grip on my focus, but a Lil distraction came along and I lost grip of that focus I was holding on too.


I admit it was my fault, every decision, every act, has a consequence.
Now I have to redeem myself, and I don't know how long it's gone take. I'm just mad at myself, more then I'm mad at God, or anybody else.


Life is a game, some times you win, some times you lose...sometimes you crap.


I crapped.
I realized the results of my action, but I'm more so surprised at people snitchin' on me, I wish people would learn to shut their mouth, and mind their own business. My life, and my business ain't got nothing to do with yours, you rat bastard. I think God for self-control and temperance because their are a few choice words I can use freely right now, but that's either here, nor there, and I'm much mature then that.


But more so I want to encourage you whose reading this, to keep pushing forward. Trouble don't last always, and if God brought you to it, He will see you through it. Today is not the end of the road for you, and I faithfully write that your life is far from over. You may be experiencing some turblence right now, but I want to encourage you to fasten the belt of confidence around your waste, and just relax your worrying mind. Trouble don't last always. I firmly believe that God will never put more on you then you can bear, and you have the mental capacity, to make things happen. What you see in the spiritual can manifest itself in the nature. If only you stay focused, consistent, and faithful with whatever it is God is telling you to do.


But His promises are conditional.
You can't expect to receive from God, and not be willing to sacrifice something on your end.  Yes God's promises are true, and they will come to pass if only we will obediently align ourselves with the word of God, which is foundational. And the things he is calling us to change within ourselves.


The Problem
Sin can and will disrupt the streamline of favor, and blessings that are ordained for your life.


The Solution
Rid your space of all the things in you that cause more damage then good.


Call my writing schizophrenic, but it's mines and it's real.

-rUCK

Sleeping with a broken heart.

Superman  is coming, he is going to bring out you. But you gotta be patient till he comes,and give him the chance to do what only he can do. 

When you try to wear the cape it's useless, there's no power in it for you. 

That's why you have gotta step aside, and let him carry the load for you, rescue you from your pain and misery. 

I know it hurts to be alone, because we are all created to be loved, and affirmed. But love shouldn't hurt as bad as it do, for you, 

You have been the victim for too long. It's time to break away, so you can see your way. 

It's not far now, your almost there if you don't fall now, 

But if you fall, don't worry, superman will be there to save you. 

Your not to heavy, your not a weight he can't carry, you aren't baggage that he can't make use of. 

When you've been refused, out-of-the-way, ignored. 

Wait and watch superman come and make something useful of the mess you've made. 

Your tears are not in vain, sometimes you need to cry. Crying is the bodies way of healing from the pain that you've been holding in. 
-rUCK

Enjoy The Journey

     
     Last year I got away from writing in my journal, and updating my blog on a consistent basis. Please forgive me for my inconsistency, I believe we all go through seasons and situations that pull us away from the things we are passionate about. I encourage you to try your best this year to remain committed to, and consistent in the things that you are passion about, and feel so connected to. It's easy to allow circumstances in our lives to overwhelm us to the put of being inactive, and uninvolved in our pursuits of destiny. Every goal you set can be achieved, every desire in your heart can be attained, and every dream you have can come true. If first, you trust in God, and committed to your dream. Try as best you can to not allow negative people, negative thinking, negative habits to take root in your life, to the point it distracts you from your ultimate purpose in life. We are all created for a reason, and when the internal clock of our lives runs out, we still have to answer to God about what we made out of the lives' He has given us.

       I decided this year will be my greatest year, and I will finish everything I started. There are some idea's and things I started on, and had to put on the back burner because I became distracted in my own personal affairs, and issues. My friend, you can not become this way. Your gifts, and talents are the things that make you unique. They are the things that set you apart from your peers. These are the things that give you an outlet from the chaos in the world, and even the chaos within your own self. Take some time this year, and tap into your true being, go beyond the surface of your looks, and seek to find out your true identity in the God. It's not surprising to me how many people walk the face of the earth, and claim to know who they are, when the truth is they have no clue whose they are, or even what they were created for. You owe it to yourself to discover your true identity and it will blow your mind.

      Honestly, It took me 5 years to come to terms with who I am, and what I am created to do. And I know my journey to discovery is not over. But this year I am so committed to fulfilling the calling in my life, and bring out the best in those in my social circle. Ask your friends do they know what they were created for. Ask those you have intimate relationships with do they honestly believe there's more to their lives' then what they presently have. If they can give you a profound and sincere answer then committee to helping each other toward a healthy pursuit of self-identity. If there answer is something along the lines of, "I don't know," or "I'm not sure" then take the initiative to walk the journey with them. Your life will be better for it. But if those in your circle act nonchalant or detached spiritually toward this questions then they are the ones not ordained to walk the journey with you.

Set some time apart for yourself, to do some true self-discovery. And once you come to terms with your purpose in life, immediately walk in it. Leave the past in the past, because your future is brighter then your eyes can see.

See you in the future, enjoy the journey.

-rUCK