EVOLVE.

“They play it safe, are quick to assassinate what they do not understand. They move in packs, ingesting more and more fear with every act of hate on one another. They feel most comfortable in groups. Less guilt to swallow. They are us. This is what we have become. Afraid to respect the individual. A single person, or event or circumstance can move one to change, to love ourselves, to evolve.”

-Erykah Badu

Nu Video "Window Seat"

Proverbs.

There are NO SHORTCUTS in lyfe,

my bible says the journey to destiny is as frugile as walking on thread.

YACKS!

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Somethings are better kept, between us too!

Thank you to every one for your encouragement and diggin' my blog. It is doing exactly what I inspired it to do, 'stare yourself in the mirror'.

My next 3 post will not be as lengthy, because we are flirting with expanding the blog, to increase it's activity and exposure.

I wish you knew what I'm thinking.

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This is the LAST time.

I hear voices but not from people around, im in the car by myself, on my way to HIS house. Music pulsating in the background. And I hear voices, the voice between good & evil. These voices don't have a face, only pure & inpure motives. Talking and lauffin' with dude on the phone, as he gives me directions. And the whole time there's a war going on in me. I say to myself, "God are you serious? I thought I left you at church". How can I fit in with this struggle within me, between what is good for me, and what seems good, but really is just a road to my destruction. I see good as my allie and evil as enemy. I see evil as something that seems well, but doesn't mean well for me. Kinda like a friend who gives you the advice you want to hear, only to reap the reward of seeing you fall in return.

Good says, I'll keep you from failing,

Evil says, I hope you fail.

I don't know what I prayed Sunday at church, but this time I see the intent of evil, it has laid the cards out on the table, and given me the option to choose. Evil is the type of friend that sets the date up for you, knowing what you want, exactly what you like, knowing your preference. And introduces you to the person knowing they got HIV, or knowing they got a reputation for being a hoe or a dawg. This time I see the path of evil, I see the path so clear, till' this time I see the destruction at the end of it.
Oh how it looks so tempting, he has set me up nice. My friend knows what I want, I have all the freedom in the world to do this. It has been a long time. I've been doing so good, I think I owe it to myself. I should just blow this moment. Say, 'fuck Jesus' and do me. Tonight. I should just bail out on God, and become BFF's with my addiction, my affliction. When you protect what God doesn't approve, you become its allie, and God's enemy. This will be my last time as I've said a 100 times before. When I'm ready to return, God will take me back. I've done good so far staying away from men, eventhough they have thrown every sign and hint at me. I've done good by walking the other way, it will just be one night with dude. It will just be one night with a drink, just one more time for me to get wasted. Hold my hand thru this Jesus. It won't hurt me. God will bail me out as he has done 10,000 times before. I'm going to dude house, and I will leave Jesus at the door, no matter of fact, Ima leave him waiting in the car.  I was just in church sunday singing about God You're the fire in light,when nights are long and cold. But how much can God keep me warm when I've had a few shots, and his sweet kisses are all I think about. You foolish to believe that God is in the world. I'm taking a chance, I'm taking a risk. It's funny how we call ourselves risk takers, only when we're willing to risk the right things, for the wrong reasons. It's funny I can't take a risk when it comes to my relationship with God, but I'm willing to take a risk that can ultimately kill me. It's like a bad gamble.  I'm standing outside this nigga door, and I get convicted.

God speaks,

"What are you doing here? You know you aren't suppose to be doing this. What happened to getting your life back on track? Why are you using my grace, and pimp-handling my protection to satisfy a disease you've asked me over and over to cure you from. Your prayers have no weight, they are just words with no meaning. If you walk thru that door, then I will leave you for good. If you take another sip of that ciroc` say goodbye to your dreams. If you take another pull at that jay, kiss your lyfe away. You know you shouldn't be doing this. What about all the talks we've had about getting it right, about how we gone be together for good. I told you I love you, but I guess that doesn't mean nothing from me. I guess you rather hear it from him, since he knows you better then I do. Are you that willing to throw it all away for ONE NIGHT?! Well this is it, if you walk thru that door this time it won't be for chance. This time it will be for good.

When will the last time be the last time?

There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death (Proverbs 14:12)

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Puff Puff Pass

You can't Puff Puff Pass on God. It hit me this morning while I was at chuuch, Promotion comes from God! the revelation was simple, you haven't earned enough credit with God for Him to see you as worthy for a promotion. Many people desire for God to expose us, to expand us, and to grow us. But we don't give Him 'us' to work with.You can't expect for God to connect you with desired relationships, when your credibility with him is in despair. We want God to open doors for us, and elevate us, but at the same time God can not trust us with those things because our relationship with him is too inconsistent. Yuuup! God desires to promote you, Yuuup! God desires to give you the desires of your heart. Yuuup! God wants to show you new and exciting things. But you will not pimp God, or gimmick Him into doing for you, when you haven't given Him your time, attention, or RESOURCES! (money). Your promotion comes from God, when are you going to let Him stretch you? Yeah stretching ain't always easy, yeah stretching hurts, yeah stretching takes you out of your comfort zone. But you have to give God the chance to do what He wants with you, so you can see the positively abundant outcome from your lyfe.

This revelation was so clear when God spoke it to me. Man does not have any control over how and when God decides to bring elevation in your life. Now I don't have any bible verse to back this up, but I believe God does inspire me to write this. Alot of what I write is out of my own life experiences. Lately I have been spiritually agggravated, because when it comes to my relationship with God, my biggest flaw is inconsistency. And it has been that way since I have been saved. And I'm sure it's not just me that has this issue. But I understand if I am going to have a deeply intimate, and positively progressive relationship with my Lord and Savior. Then I have to really press myself for that type of relationship. It's nobodies fault but my own that my relationship with God is no further then when the day I started walking my salvation out. It's nobody elses fault that I pursue a close relationship with God but then fall off 3 weeks later. It ain't my parents fault, it ain't my brothers fault, it ain't even the devil's fault. The blame is all on me. I talk the talk, but I don't walk the walk.

We talk about wanting a better life for oursleves, we talk about doing better for ourselves, we talk about going after the wealth, and abundance that God promised us. But those things aren't going to happen apart from God. No matter how much money Jay-z or beyonce' may have. No matter how much Gucci or Louis Vuitton Kanye West may have. Those things are only a illusion. And when those things take president over God, you can be sure to lose them.

Life isn't suppose to be complicated, we do that ourselves. Our next door isn't suppose to be a mystery. God is not a mysterious God, He just works in mysterious ways. He wants you to know HIM, He wants you to see yourself as worthy of His time and attention. The way to getting your relationship with God back on track is by admitting and confessing to Him that you need Him everyday of your life. And you start to fervently pursue Him thru prayer, worship, and devotion. Start making God the aim or intent of all you do. And watch Him bring the exposure and growth you deserve to see. Start off every morning talking to God, it ain't gotta be deep, just talk to Him. He would very much appreciate the fact that you consider Him worthy of your time over Twitter, itunes, or Facebook.  When you take the first step, trust God to take the rest with you, and not for you.

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LOLOUDERRR

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We Need God.

As I write this I am at a season in my lyfe where my resources, and my source for living are totally dependent on God. This is a place of faith I have chosen to walk in, the great thing about a season is it doesn't last long. I started out trusting God to provide for me, and He has not failed me. In fact, He has blown my brain, while I have blown this season. I am so unworthy of anything God does for me. Once again, for the 1000th time in my life, I have started on the path to sell-out out to God, and redeeming my relationship with Him. But now I have fallen short....I have stopped....I have missed the mark....I have let God down. But yet and still the Lord has given me another chance, by giving me another day. It is so easy for me to quit right now, it is easy for me to be comfortable in this place of stagnation. But this time I can not keep still. I have to keep telling myself that FAILURE IS NOT A OPTION, and to be incomplete is not Gods' purpose for my life. I must keep moving forward, I have to continue this journey toward my future. I do not know what is ahead, I have to trust God, because I need Him.

Perhaps you have reached a place in your lyfe where you are feeling lost or stuck about what to do, and which way to go. I believe that if you admit to God that you need Him, then I know He is more then willing to help you. It's okay to admit that you feel lost, it's okay to admit to God that you don't know which direction to go in. You probably have everything figured out. If you are like me, I'm sure you have every detail outlined, and every goal written down about the NEW YEAR, and your future. I am even convinced that you had developed the energy and motivation to give lyfe your all, but some where on the journey, you stopped, you quit, you gave up. I know because I have been there, I have been to the point where I knew where I was headed in life. Then all of a sudden I found myself in the midst of circumstances, and situations beyond my control, someone came along and knocked my focus, some event distracted me, and detoured me from the plan I had set for myself.

It is in those moments where we feel off track, and out of focus, that we must look to God to re-direct us, and re-focus us. Why? Because He orchestrates those moments. And He knows what we need better then we can articulate. Yuuup! He meant for that event to come along and bring a road block you can not seem to get around. God meant for the college that you thought you should have been accepted into, to deny you. He meant for you to get caught up in the streets, and running with the worng crowd. All of the the things negative that were events in our lives, God put them there. Just so you will have the moment where you admit that you need Him. What would be Gods' purpose if life was perfect? What would be Gods' purpose if we had it all figured out? What would be Gods' purpose if we always had the things we needed? What would be Gods' purpose if We always kept a job to provide for us? What would be Gods' purpose if you knew where your life was going? What would be Gods' purpose if you could control what happened to you? What would be Gods' purpose if you knew how you would recover? What would be Gods' purpose! It is in these moments of doubt and confusion that God works His best. It is in the times we are stuck that God is there waiting to pull us out. It is in the times where we fear for our living, that God is willing to provide for us. I feel your pain, but God knows your pain. This is nothing far-fetched. This is nothing too hard for you to do. It's simple. Tell God how much you need Him. I don't care who you are, or how much money you have. As long as you are human, the more you will need God. HE'S MORE THEN ABLE TO HELP YOU.

Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track. Don't assume that you know it all. Run to God! Run from evil! -Proverbs 3:5-12

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